So, It’s Been A Year

It was weird yesterday, watching my sister’s basketball game. Because almost one year ago I was the one out there on the court.

But I wasn’t okay like she was.

I was exhausted, sickness building up in my body as I ran limply back and forth. If I had gotten the ball I wouldn’t have taken a shot, because I would’ve known I’d miss it.

It all kind of hit me the other night, and tears threatened to spill. But they were happy tears.

Because I looked at how far I’ve come from that crazy day of sickness, of finally knowing what’s wrong, of being whisked off into the ICU without fully grasping what was happening to me. I looked at how much God has used this disease for good in my life.

In case you don’t know already, I have type one diabetes. Basically, my body doesn’t make a hormone called insulin. Insulin helps you use carbs for energy and keep your blood sugar stable. So now, I have to take an artificial medicine version of it whenever I eat. I used to take it through 4 shots a day. Now, a year later, I simply put some numbers into an insulin pump.

A year ago today I was diagnosed with T1D. And I look at all those happy moments and good things that have come along the way.

Like when my friend first visited me when I got home from the hospital. She looked at me like I was some sort of fragile thing that could be shattered in an instant if not careful. But I excitedly showed her my ‘toolkit’ of all the things I now needed to manage this new thing in my life.

Now all my friends forget about diabetes. One time my friend and I wistfully gazed at a slushie stand. I commented on how many carbs it would have, and she said, “Wait, why do you care about carbs?” I almost laughed and had to re-explain everything. Now diabetes is normal for me and my friends.

Or like when I got home from the hospital. My dad, sister, and grandma decorated the table with all the flowers and gifts I got and a huge banner, and they cleaned my room for me. I started crying because I missed them and knew they missed me too. I smiled through my tears and told them over and over how thankful I was.

And my family still is incredibly supportive. They encourage me, love me, care for me, help me, and more. I love them so much and I’m so grateful for all that they’ve done for me and how they’ve helped me through this journey.

Just before my mom and I were about to go home from the hospital, I started to cry because I was scared about what was ahead. If I could even survive. What would happen if I did something wrong? If I would ever eat a donut again.

That last one, I have to laugh at. XD But this morning I ate a donut. Every weekend I have 1-2 donuts. And look at me? I’m still alive. I could eat the donut. I can eat anything. I can DO anything. Diabetes won’t stop me.

I mean, it has stopped me a few times in the past, like how I couldn’t go to summer camp or that awesome out-of-town sleepover one of my friends hosted. I’ve missed out on a bit because of diabetes. But now, those things seem so insignificant compared to all the good things that have happened.

Like how I raised $3,000 for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation! Or how I’m going to be an ambassador for the JDRF Promise Ball this year! Or how when one of my mom’s friends/family members read my diabetes FAQ and went to the doctor because she thought she had type two diabetes, only to discover that she had a heart problem. In a way, I helped save her life through a disease and a talent I’ve been blessed with.

I remember when I was lying in the hospital bed. In the darkness and stillness of the night, these lyrics came to me like a gentle whisper:

Lord, take me under your wing 

And the whole world will sing

 Jesus Christ the King

 Is coming

Oh take me by the hand 

And help me understand 

That You always have a plan, no matter where I am 

No matter 

Where 

Am.

So today, on my ‘diaversiary’, instead of being sad I’m reflecting on how far I’ve come. Because I’ve gone from that ten-year-old version of me worried about never figuring this thing out to a stronger, older, and braver girl who’s finally found the ‘new normal’ that the doctors kept saying diabetes would be. And maybe someday they’ll be a cure for what I have.

But until then, I’ll continue to grow and share and inspire and use this for good. There are so many things I want to do or feel called to do, like raise money to donate to the promise ball and eventually write a book about diabetes someday. So until then:

Yours truly,

If you would like to donate to JDRF and bring us closer to finding a cure for T1D please visit their website here!

PS: I’ve been cleared to go to summer camp at my last doctors’ appointment!

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Flashback. (A Christmas AGSM Movie) | For 200 Followers + 1 Year on YouTube!

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The other day I was at a pizza restaurant, mindlessly staring at the maximum occupancy: 160 sign. Today, I looked back on that moment and realized something absolutely CRAZY: All of my followers wouldn’t fit in that pizza restaurant!

You guys, I CANNOT thank you enough. When I started this blog I had NO IDEA how much it would grow – 200 followers seemed like a distant dream I could never achieve. I remember how happy I was when I got my first follower – you can only imagine how happy I am now!

Of course, blogging isn’t about followers at all. I used to get jealous of other blogs, thinking, I’ve had my blog longer than them but they have a lot more followers than me. I’ve definitely improved on that, and it seemed like when I stopped obsessing over follower counts and paid attention to creating and reading awesome content, my follow count started growing!

The least I can do to thank you guys besides this rambling ‘speech’ is finally post flashback.! I really, really wanted to get this up by Christmas, but due to several complications, I wasn’t able to. I’ve been working on it even harder for the past few days, and I just finished the final product today!

Without further ado… flashback: a christmas agsm movie!

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Destiny Phillips hasn’t been herself ever since her diabetes diagnosis last year. When the anniversary of her sickness rolls around, Christmas isn’t what it used to be. With the help of Present & Future, can Destiny become herself again?

I’m so, so excited you guys can finally see this! I’ve been working on it all December, and I think I’ve filmed & edited for about thirty hours in total. Make sure to tell me what you think (and if you recognized some of Destiny’s backstory from this post)!

Also, one more fun thing: I’ve been on YouTube for 1 year and 1 day! I started it on the last day of 2017. Even though I don’t upload as consistently as I do on the blog, or have very many subscribers, I still love making videos and I’m so grateful to have my channel! Kaylyn’s live videos have also helped me connect with other AGTubers, which is so cool! You can check out the AGW YouTube channel here!

Here’s to an awesome 2019! I have so many great things planned for AGW this year, and I can’t wait for y’all to see them. Here’s to an awesome year!

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Braving the Backyard: A Photoshoot (Ft. My First Real Camera!)

Hey, marshmallows! Or should I say llamas? BECAUSE I GOT TO TAKE A SELFIE WITH A LLAMA TODAY. AHHHHH! *cuteness overload*

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IMG_0947You probably don’t know that I love llamas almost as much as marshmallows! It was so awesome to ACTUALLY. SEE. A. LLAMA. IN. PERSON.

Actually, I’m still in awe of how awesome today was – today was the JDRF OneWalk, an awesome charity event hosted by JDRF! The llama was at the petting zoo they had set up by the tents. It was so awesome to see all these people coming together, raising money and awareness for Type One Diabetes, and walking a 3k or 5k just so people like me can live as normal a life as possible. If you were there today, THANK YOU!!

The day kept getting better and better because I got to set up the Canon PowerShot SX530 my awesome grandma got me for my birthday! Thank you so much, GMa!

Once I got home from Nutcracker practice and my camera battery had charged, I grabbed Z and headed out into the backyard for a photoshoot.

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I liked how this picture turned out! With some editing, I brightened her eyes and added a watermark.

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This photo barely needed any editing! I love the scarf from her accessories set that she’s wearing.

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Her shoes from the 2018 spring mix-and-match collection are super cute, too.

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Me when I took this: PLEASEDON’TFALLPLEASEDON’TFALLPLEASEDON’TFALL

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Z: Woooohooooo! This picture was hard to take, but I like the end results!

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Can you believe it’s November already? I definitely can’t! I’ve been spending the first few days of NaNo structuring my book, and when I finish, I’ll actually write the book itself for the rest of the month.

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Z: Done with the slide! Time to get off.

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Z: Hey, what’s this?

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Z: Salutations, my loyal subjects! 

I love this one! It might be the best out of the whole photoshoot. It’s really cool how the fence made vignette-type shadows at the edges.

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Time for Z to conquer the swings! I had to get on the ground for this photo, but it was worth it!

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Isn’t Z so photogenic?

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Z: Hey, look at Chewy over there! Hi Chewy!

Bonus Photos!

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Aww, Chewy’s so adorable! He loves sniffing the grass for some reason. XD

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He looks like he’s in deep thought. XD Don’t look too closely at Z in the background

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For some reason, I think this picture of rotten wood looks cool. What do you think? Make sure to leave a comment!

I hope that you had a blessed day! I certainly did. Thanks for a great day, God!

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Hey, marshmallows!

It seems crazy that it’s already Fall. Can you believe that? School has started, the weather is cooling down (in everywhere except Texas), and the trees are beginning to turn orange and red.

Basically, how my seasonal wrap-up posts work, I list the pros and cons of the past season (in this case, Summer). Then, I’ll share some stats, and conclude with goals for the future and what I got done this summer!

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Can I Still Eat Marshmallows??{Understanding Type 1 Diabetes + Diabetes FAQ}

Hi there, marshmallows!

THE LOOMING QUESTION HANGS OVER OUR HEADS.

CAN I STILL EAT YOU?

Wait. Back up. That just sounds…extremely disturbing. Let’s rephrase that:

CAN I STILL EAT MARSHMALLOWS?

So read more of this little FAQ to find out! If you have more questions, feel free to leave a comment.

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